His answer is immediate, not argumentative or aggressive but still firm. He might not have said it before all this, but now? Now it's hammered home to him that he's a traitor, he's dangerous, he is everything he's ever hunted and worse because he absolutely knew better and chose to do it anyway.
And he did: "I chose to go rogue. Like I know both that I was never a child but I have memories of an orphanage, I know that what I did was the right thing to do and that it was the wrong thing for me to do. I did it knowing what the consequence was. I did it knowing that it went against everything I was created to do. I'm not sorry I did it, but right now -"
His breath comes faster as he speaks, hitching with the leftovers both of what really happened and what the nightmare branded into his mind; he hadn't intended to sacrifice himself. It's only that the programming that he betrayed was stronger than the knowledge that he'd do it again exactly like he did before, and left him drowning.
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Date: 2022-08-06 07:12 am (UTC)His answer is immediate, not argumentative or aggressive but still firm. He might not have said it before all this, but now? Now it's hammered home to him that he's a traitor, he's dangerous, he is everything he's ever hunted and worse because he absolutely knew better and chose to do it anyway.
And he did: "I chose to go rogue. Like I know both that I was never a child but I have memories of an orphanage, I know that what I did was the right thing to do and that it was the wrong thing for me to do. I did it knowing what the consequence was. I did it knowing that it went against everything I was created to do. I'm not sorry I did it, but right now -"
His breath comes faster as he speaks, hitching with the leftovers both of what really happened and what the nightmare branded into his mind; he hadn't intended to sacrifice himself. It's only that the programming that he betrayed was stronger than the knowledge that he'd do it again exactly like he did before, and left him drowning.
"Right now I feel like I deserve worse."